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Post by Gracie♥ on Sept 6, 2010 16:52:55 GMT -8
 you heard that i was trouble ,
BUT YOU COULDN'T RESISTT A K E A B I T E L E T M E S H A K E U P Y O U R W O R L D- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
I sat idly in the corner, listening wordlessly to the conversations of my friends, their voices clouding my thoughts. I glanced down at my arms, uneasily tracing where I knew there should be dark scars. This morning, I had taken some of Allie's concealer out of the bathroom, and spread it up and down my arms. The scars were almost completely covered, and only visible if you knew exactly where they were. Perfect.
I was positive that Heath would've told everyone in our grade about my, er, problems, but I could outsmart him in a heartbeat. This would be turned right back around to him, making him look even crazier than he already was.
I bit into round, red apple with a muted crunch, which I kind of believed was my jaw, and not the fruit. I'd put a dab of dark makeup on top of the already existing bruise, as well. Simply the icing on the cake. I winced, the pain worsening with every bite I took.
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Post by summerstorm on Sept 6, 2010 17:01:33 GMT -8
  
As I walked out of the classroom and into the hall, I stood in the corner as other people passed by. My god, I couldn't even think properly. Pretty sure I completely bombed that test. Eli.. I couldn't get him off my mind. I was trying to forget him... trying to move on. Being with someone that violent had screwed up my life enough as it was.. I couldn't do that again.
I couldn't... right?
As I walked around the corner and into the cafeteria, I could see him sitting idly in the corner. I quickly dropped my gaze, avoiding looking at him as I continued to an empty table. My friends sat at a table in the middle of the room, but I didn't feel like socializing right now.
This was making me crazy.
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YOU KNOW THE RAINY DAYS, THEY AIN'T SO BAD
Heath Kellan Corbet
WHEN YOU'RE THE KING, THE KING THEY WANNA SEE
"No, I'm completely serious. I saw them."
I told my friends as we walked to the cafeteria, referring to the scars on Eli's arms. The word of his cutting had spread through the grade.. no, the entire school like wildfire. As we walked into the room, I could see him sitting at a table in the corner, and I gave a smirk. Now I would just amp the tension a little, no harm in that.
I walked purposefully towards him, lifting an eyebrow as I stared at him.
"Hey cutter."
I said smugly, people watching and listening as I spoke.
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Post by Gracie♥ on Sept 6, 2010 17:14:49 GMT -8
you heard that i was trouble ,
BUT YOU COULDN'T RESISTT A K E A B I T E L E T M E S H A K E U P Y O U R W O R L D- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
"Hey cutter."
Heath's voice rang out, catching the attention of everyone in the cafeteria. I grinned, twisting around my arms innocently. Shrugging playfully, I showed the inside of my wrists, moving away the bracelets that rested around my arms.
"Who, me?" I inquired, a satisfied chuckle escaping my lips. I watched, waiting for his response.
Heath would surely be dumbfounded, just how I wanted him. The best way to avoid a bully? Keep him on his toes. Being predictable is the worst thing that could happen. They'll build up some sort of twisted trust that what you do will always be the same. And we can't have that, now can we?
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Post by summerstorm on Sept 6, 2010 17:39:29 GMT -8
Out of the corner of my eye, I could see Heath walk into the cafeteria. I quickly averted my gaze, however kept a quiet watch from the corner of my eye. He walked towards Eli. Hey cutter. I could hear his words just barely, but that was definitely what he had said. Who, me? Eli's voice shot back, as a quizzical expression passed over my face. As I risked another glance behind me, hearing Eli's easy chuckle escaping his lips. When I turned around, I could see Eli holding out his arms, which were completely free of any scars. Weird.
But then again, Eli never failed to surprise me.
As I turned my gaze back around, I rested my chin in my hand, breathing a soft sigh. It was as if all of a sudden I felt incredibly alone. My friends made quick glances at me from the table, but I guessed that they had heard of Heath's remarks of Eli's 'cutting'. This was when I really hated my popularity. I had no one I could really trust. No one that I could really talk to. Except Eli... A voice whispered in the back of my head, as I tried to push it away.
But I couldn't push it away. My thoughts were consumed with everything about him.
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YOU KNOW THE RAINY DAYS, THEY AIN'T SO BAD
Heath Kellan Corbet
WHEN YOU'RE THE KING, THE KING THEY WANNA SEE
Who, me?
He gave a satisfied laugh as he stretched out his arms, where his scars should[/]i have been. My friends from behind me mumbled to each other, before pushing me and making smart assed remarks. God dammit, this Eli was really screwing things up. Just yesterday he had deep, ugly scars marking up his arms. Now there was nothing. I tried to keep the disbelief off my face as my friends disappeared from behind me. I swallowed trying to act non-chalant.
"Your really screwed up."
I told him through gritted teeth.
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Post by Gracie♥ on Sept 6, 2010 17:54:25 GMT -8
you heard that i was trouble ,
BUT YOU COULDN'T RESISTT A K E A B I T E L E T M E S H A K E U P Y O U R W O R L D- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
"You really screwed up," Heath spat.
I raised one eyebrow, watching him quizzically. I tried to keep a straight face as the cafeteria broke out into laughter, surely pissing Heath off even more. "And how is that?" I shot back, cocking my head with a smug expression on my face.
And then I saw her. Ava was sitting daintily in the back of the room, looking troubled. Damn. I did my best not to stare, taking another painful bite out of the plump apple I held in my hand. Heath and his friends still stood in front of me, and I tried not to laugh at how stupid they looked by now.
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Post by summerstorm on Sept 6, 2010 18:10:08 GMT -8
Your really screwed up.
I heard Heath tell Eli, shaking my head and trying to tune out his arrogant voice. It didn't work too well, seeing as my heart jumped whenever I heard Eli's voice. And how is that? His voice... it was.. indescribable. Like my favourite song to my ears. Ava.. come on. I told myself, trying to quit thinking about him.
But in all truth, it wasn't working. It would never work.
Eli had me the first time I met him. There was no going back, self consciously, I knew that. But I suppose I could still try to forget, right?
Try and fail miserably.
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YOU KNOW THE RAINY DAYS, THEY AIN'T SO BAD
Heath Kellan Corbet
WHEN YOU'RE THE KING, THE KING THEY WANNA SEE
And how is that?
Eli shot back at me, and I just shook my head as the cafeteria broke out in laugher. Shit, shit shit. This was not going well for me. Well, I wouldn't have any of that. My friends disappeared from behind me, shaking their heads and making jokes. I swallowed, keeping my embarrassment to myself.
"It shouldn't need explaining."
I muttered, before turning on my heel and walking out of the cafeteria, the crowds of people chuckling to themselves. Eli would pay for that. Mark my words, he would.
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Post by Gracie♥ on Sept 6, 2010 18:28:07 GMT -8
you heard that i was trouble ,
BUT YOU COULDN'T RESISTT A K E A B I T E L E T M E S H A K E U P Y O U R W O R L D- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
"It shouldn't need explaining."
Heath turned on his heel, striding out into the hall. I grinned, victorious. Ava was still watching me, her icy gaze catching mine from the other side of the room. I raised my eyebrows, leaving the apple in my mouth as I raised my hand, now free, and motioned for her to come sit with me.
I slid across the bench, making space for her to sit beside me. My jaw throbbed, still hurting from previous fights. Heath might have won that battle, but I was definitely winning this war. That was undoubtedly true, making my smile grow slowly wider.
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Post by summerstorm on Sept 6, 2010 18:37:10 GMT -8
It shouldn't need explaining.
So much for tuning out his voice. Finally he turned on his heel and left the cafeteria behind his friends, as the groups of students laughed in pure amusement. I shook my head to myself; arrogant asshole. As my gaze caught Eli's, I could see him raise his eyebrows, apple in his mouth as he motioned for me to come and sit with him. I looked down at the table, debating wether to actually go over. But honestly... I didn't know if I could stay sitting there when he was offering me a place beside him... even though his actions had made me uncharacteristically angry.
When I gave him one final glance I gave in, pushing up from the table before walking over to where Eli sat, as he made room for me.
I sat down silently, setting my hands idly in my lap. I resisted the urge to take his hands in mine, to hold onto him and never let go. No one had ever had this affect on me.. usually, it was the other way around. Eli was something new to me, entirely.
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Post by Gracie♥ on Sept 7, 2010 5:14:39 GMT -8
you heard that i was trouble ,
BUT YOU COULDN'T RESISTT A K E A B I T E L E T M E S H A K E U P Y O U R W O R L D- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
I shot Ava a twisted grin as she strode over towards me, sitting idly on the bench. She looked... Conflicted. A soft, confused expression on my face, I turned to face her, pulling the hair out of her face. I sat for a moment, watching Ava closely, before I could speak.
"You have pretty eyes,"
I commented, lowering my head so I could see her better and biting my lip uncomfortably. Swallowing hard, I rested my arms easily on the table, keeping my sleeves proudly rolled up. There went that rumor. And this was just the beginning. I had a million ways to scare Heath away, and I would rather have a reputation as a threat than none at all. Heath would regret ever messing with me.
Without a doubt.
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Post by summerstorm on Sept 7, 2010 14:06:27 GMT -8
You have pretty eyes.
Eli said, pushing my hair from my eyes while he watched me intently. I had to resist the urge to bring my eyes up from the table, avoiding his gaze. There was nothing I wanted more right then than to be will Eli, holding him closely and never wanting to let go.
But none the less, I had to remind myself something I had promised a while ago: I would not make the same mistake again. With a heavy breath, I brought my lips up in a soft smile at his comment, not really being able to continue being angry with him.
"Thanks..."
I whispered before trailing off, wondering what I should be saying. I didn't want to have to relive last month's events by telling Eli what had happened. If I could tell anyone, I knew it was him.. it was just... too soon, I suppose. It hurt to remember it, hurt to even think of it.
"There's just something you have to understand, Eli. I can't make the same mistake again..."
My voice shook with anxiety as I spoke, my eyes wandering and trying to hold back the emotion. I would not cry... not here, not now.
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Post by Gracie♥ on Sept 7, 2010 16:52:58 GMT -8
you heard that i was trouble ,
BUT YOU COULDN'T RESISTT A K E A B I T E L E T M E S H A K E U P Y O U R W O R L D- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
"Thanks... There's just something you have to understand, Eli. I can't make the same mistake again..."
I blinked, taken aback by her last comment. Had I done something wrong? I shot her a perplexed look, positive this had something to do with Heath. But, I wasn't anything like him... Was I? Shaking my head in disbelief, I watched as the emotion started to bubble up inside of her.
Heath must have seriously hurt her... What the hell was his problem? I shuddered, unsure how to respond to Ava's comments. Sure, there were a hundred things I could have told her, but I didn't want to go wrong. Normally, I didn't care what anyone thought, but Ava... She was different. I actually cared.
"Fine. I'll call off the dogs. Smooth things over with Heath. It'd be worth it..for you,"
The last two words I had simply mouthed, hardly audible. But, in a way, I knew she would have heard me. I breathed a soft sigh, giving Ava a weak smile.
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Post by summerstorm on Sept 7, 2010 17:04:27 GMT -8
Fine. I'll call off the dogs. Smooth things over with Heath. It'd be worth it..for you.
The last words were simply mouthed, but I understood them easily. He gave a soft smile as he breathed a sigh, letting my gaze finally lift to meet his. It was like his eyes could tunnel right down to my soul... to my heart. He made every feeling I could ever feel like a hot wire. No matter what, I could never get used to it.. it was something I had never felt before.
"Let's not talk about Heath anymore..."
I told him with a weak smile, reaching my hand over to take his in mine. Turning his wrist over on the table, I looked at his forearm, raising a quizzical eyebrow to see the scars no longer there.
"There goes that rumour."
I said softly, letting my lips pull up in an amused smile.
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Post by Gracie♥ on Sept 7, 2010 17:26:14 GMT -8
you heard that i was trouble ,
BUT YOU COULDN'T RESISTT A K E A B I T E L E T M E S H A K E U P Y O U R W O R L D- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
"Let's not talk about Heath anymore... There goes that rumour."
I laughed lightly, tracing where the scars should have been on my arms. I watched, her expression melting into a sweet, soft smile. I shrugged, giving her a sly grin.
"I snuck some of my roommate's concealer,"
I told her proudly. After waiting a moment, I licked my fingers gently before rubbing off a small bit of the makeup, revealing a deep, red scar. I turned back to her, a satisfied, coy smile plastered on my face. I had just made Heath look like a complete moron, and it felt damn good.
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Post by summerstorm on Sept 7, 2010 17:47:15 GMT -8
 HOW CAN I DECIDE WHAT'S RIGHT WHEN YOUR CLOUDING UP MY MIND
I could see the brunette girl sitting next to Eli look up at me, acknowledging me as if she new who I was. Interesting. She looked like the type of girl who would be hanging out with the rest of the more popular people (who were staring at me as I stood there). And yet, I still couldn't place her name, even though I knew I had seen her before. As my gazed turned back to Eli, I could see him run a hand across his forehead, exasperated. He said something to the girl, nodding to me as he managed a feeble, twisted smile.
Maybe I shouldn't have come back.
Yeah, okay. That much was obvious. Even Eli thought I was better off not to even come back. But I wasn't about to let this so called 'condition' run my life, if it was considered that I still had one.
"You may as well go back through the door you came in, Zombie."
One of the people at a table muttered to me, as the others around him continued to give me glares. Man, if looks could kill... okay, bad pun. But still. It was seriously beginning to piss me off. I managed to ignore the remarks from the other students as I passed by them, walking towards Eli and the girl.
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OUTFIT,, CLICK
MUSIC,, inspiration music
NOTES,, ohai
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Speak of the devil.
Eli muttered to me, rubbing his hand anxiously on his forehead as he nodded towards the girl, Allie. I gave him a soft, but slightly confused look. He seemed... perturbed about something. Like there was more bothering him than the more obvious things that I knew about. You may as well go back through the door you came in, Zombie. A voice I recognized muttered, a group behind him laughing in response. It was Heath, of course. I could guess without even looking over. What an asshole. Ava, when she was shot... It was my fault. You're right. I'm messed. Eli's sudden words surprised me... although I guess they shouldn't have. Truth was, I was waiting for another horrible thing that might have happened to cause him to start cutting himself. I swallowed anxiously, watched as Allie began her way through the crowded cafeteria.
"It couldn't have been your fault, Eli."
I whispered as Allie got closer to us, taking his hand beneath the table. There was so much more to Eli that I still had to figure out. That still made me wonder if I ever would know the answers.
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Post by Gracie♥ on Sept 8, 2010 7:00:28 GMT -8
 you heard that i was trouble ,
BUT YOU COULDN'T RESISTT A K E A B I T E L E T M E S H A K E U P Y O U R W O R L D- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
"It couldn't have been your fault, Eli."
Ava swallowed nervously, taking my hand beneath the table as Allie weaved her way through crowds of people. They all moved away swiftly, giving her disturbed glances. I sighed, watching Ava with anxious eyes.
"No," I insisted, my tone flat and emotionless. "If it wasn't for me, she would be alive right now. I should be the one that's dead."
My voice trailed off as Allie grew closer, stopping as soon as she was in earshot. When she reached us, I pushed the left side of my mouth up uneasily into a grin, green eyes flickering to the ground. Seeing her here at school, taking so much shit from everyone... It was killing me. Literally. I was a mess, and... Maybe it would be better if I could just, dissappear.
Better for everyone, right?
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