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Post by summerstorm on Aug 6, 2010 7:55:45 GMT -8
Allie Samantha SampsonHow can I decide what's right?
When you're clouding up my mind
Can't win your losing fight all the time
Not gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
You wont take away my pride
No not this time
Not this time... My pen drifted mechanically over my paper as I hurriedly finished my homework that was supposed to be finished already. Students flooded the halls, the breathers joking and making fun of the undead. Typical. Which, I suppose, someone could look at me doing my homework now and say the same exact thing. The breathers passed me, not really giving me a second glance, but hey, I couldn't care less. But when the undead passed me; the writing of my pen against the paper stopped in mid sentence. There was something about them that fascinated me. Everyone else had been too busy freaking out and being disgusted by them that no one had even thought about why this was happening. But I did. I wondered how it all started, and why. Yeah, okay, I wasn't the typical everyday teenager. So what? How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know
The truth is hiding in your eyes
And its hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood,
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out on my own.
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Post by Gracie♥ on Aug 13, 2010 17:43:50 GMT -8
 you heard that i was trouble ,
BUT YOU COULDN'T RESISTT A K E A B I T E L E T M E S H A K E U P Y O U R W O R L D- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - "Do you mind if I sit here?"
I stepped out of class, weaving through the students that poured from the doors. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Allie, an old friend of mine, sitting idly by a row of lockers. Damn, she had changed since I'd seen her last. The left side of my mouth twitching into a coy smile (yeah, my smile couldn't get any more lopsided), I slid onto the cool tile floor, resting my shoulder against hers.
"Allie, how have you been?" I demanded, nudging her playfully. Her skin was icy cold... Unusual for her, but I paid it no mind. I leaned over and kissed her cheek sloppily.
"I haven't seen you in forever, love."
With a slender finger, I pushed a lock of red hair out of her face. It hit me that I was probably leading her on, but she wouldn't take it seriously, would she? We were just friends... I had other love interests, and she wasn't one of them.
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Post by summerstorm on Aug 13, 2010 17:55:46 GMT -8
Allie, how have you been?
The sound of his voice startled me only slightly as I flipped my notebook close, laughing softly as he kissed my cheek as sloppy as I remembered. I nudged him back playfully with my elbow, setting my school books off to the side. They could wait. I haven't seen you in forever, love. I nodded simply, freeing my hands of the books before looking at him, letting him brush a strand of hair from my face.
"Eh, you know, busy."
I laughed with a shrug. Eli had been one of my best friends for as long as I could remember. We often acted in ways that would make people think we were a couple, but heck both of us knew that that's not the way we wanted it.
"But seriously, Eli, its been too long."
I told him, eyes staring into his as I fiddled with my hands, late homework forgotten, as well as all thoughts of the undead.
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Post by Gracie♥ on Aug 13, 2010 18:35:31 GMT -8
you heard that i was trouble ,
BUT YOU COULDN'T RESISTT A K E A B I T E L E T M E S H A K E U P Y O U R W O R L D- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - "Eh, you know, busy."
I stepped out of class, weaving through the students that poured from the doors. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Allie, an old friend of mine, sitting idly by a row of lockers. Damn, she had changed since I'd seen her last. The left side of my mouth twitching into a coy smile (yeah, my smile couldn't get any more lopsided), I slid onto the cool tile floor, resting my shoulder against hers.
"Understandable," I purred. "Agreed... I hardly recognize you," I teased, running my hand down her cheek gently.
I turned, focusing my attention on the other side of the hall. The door had swung open, and a student strode in. No one paid him much attention, but the way he looked at me... Something was up.
I stood, glaring defensively at him. And then I saw it... There was a gun in his pocket. Shit. I was used to this violence, and I wasn't half as afraid as all these pussies. With a smug grin, I strode toward him.
The boy saw me approach, and reached immediately for his back pocket. Damn, he looked pissed.
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Post by summerstorm on Aug 13, 2010 18:50:52 GMT -8
Understandable; Agreed... I hardly recognize you,
I smiled softly as he touched my cheek gently, my eyes glancing over his lopsided smile that was one of my favourite things about him. Before I had the chance to say anything, Eli stood from our place on the cold hallway floor. I followed his intense gaze towards the front doors, seeing a student striding in, each steps seeming to be filled with purpose. The intensity of it frightened me, and I stood up, back against the wall.
I glanced the student over, although I hardly recognized him, I knew I'd seen him before. As Eli began to stride forward, I caught a glimpse of the gun in guy's back pocket. I reacted immediately, probably without much thought.
"Eli... don't..."
I was scared for him, my heart beating fast and irregular, my breathing fast as it came through nervously. As the student saw Eli walking forward, his hand touched the gun in his pocket, staring at us with sickening intensity. Making my steps carefully and cautiously, I was able to reach Eli and grab his hand in desperation, trying to catch his gaze and speak to him without words.
The student with the gun was looking around,I guessed he was seeing who had noticed him. I risked a glance around; other students were acting fairly normal, chattering at their lockers before the bell. But when the boy finally pulled the gun from his pocket, pointing it at Eli and I, one person noticed, and then the whole hallway was silent, no one moved.
A shiver ran up my spine as I stared at the student.
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Post by Gracie♥ on Aug 13, 2010 19:19:57 GMT -8
you heard that i was trouble ,
BUT YOU COULDN'T RESISTT A K E A B I T E L E T M E S H A K E U P Y O U R W O R L D- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - "Eli... don't..."
Allie grabbed my hand, but I shook her off with a violent flick of my wrist. I gulped nervously as the student pointed his gun at me. And Allie. Shit, I couldn't let Allie get hit. There was a crazed expression on his face, and I saw the muscles in his hand start to move. He was going to shoot.
Time started to slow down as I hurried back towards Allie. She couldn't get shot. No way in hell. My mind was racing as I tried to push her out of harm's way, but it was too late. The bullet had already passed me, and was headed directly for Allie.
I couldn't let this happen... But, it did. I stood helplessly, bracing myself for all the shit that was going to follow. I thought I was going to cry, but this was beyond the point of tears. I didn't know what to with myself, and by now it was too late. There was no stopping that shot.
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Post by summerstorm on Aug 13, 2010 19:33:24 GMT -8
HOW CAN I DECIDE WHAT'S RIGHT
WHEN YOUR CLOUDING UP MY MIND I let my hand drop as he shook it off violently. I was about to grab onto his arm, to pull him back to the wall, maybe behind a locker, but it was like all time ran out. The last thing I saw was Eli trying to push me back to the wall, I guessed he had seen something I hadn't. The last thing I heard was the gunshot, it was a sickeningly loud sound that echoed through the hall, the faint sounds of people screaming and yelling out making my head whirl.
Before I knew it, I was on the ground, my chest feeling sticky with blood. The pain, that was something different that hit me all at once. The air rushed out of my lungs, and then back in all at once, making me gasp for a decent breath of air. My body was shaking in convulses that weren't entirely in my control, the pain close to unbearable. My hand reached out, my eyes searching blearily for Eli, my mouth trying to say his name, but nothing came out.
The blood from my chest pooled around me, not seeming to stop. The sounds around me were a complete mess, I could only make out certain words or phrases. All I wanted was Eli.
"El.... Ell...ii.."
I tried to speak his name, but couldn't get it out as I winced in pain, my breathing come irregular and fast.
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Post by Gracie♥ on Aug 13, 2010 19:58:08 GMT -8
you heard that i was trouble ,
BUT YOU COULDN'T RESISTT A K E A B I T E L E T M E S H A K E U P Y O U R W O R L D- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
I'll never forget the sickening crunch Allie made as she fell to the tile ground. It sent chills down my spine. I fell slowly to the ground beside her, wrapping my arms around her gingerly. She felt so cold and lifeless... It was horrid.
El.. Ell... ii...
I drew in a deep breath, refusing to let go of her as the paramedics pulled up. They didn't complain, and let me hold onto Allie as they rushed to help her. I didn't want to let myself believe it, but I had a feeling she wouldn't make it.
With a sigh, I stared helplessly as the paramedics cut away at her top in order to have better access to the wound. I would've averted my eyes by now, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. It wasn't like I'd never seen her topless before, and... This was different.
I brushed her hair away from her face softly, holding back the tears that were finally burning the backs of my eyes.
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Post by summerstorm on Aug 13, 2010 20:12:23 GMT -8
HOW CAN I DECIDE WHAT'S RIGHT WHEN YOUR CLOUDING UP MY MIND Feeling Eli's arms wrap around my body was the only warmth I felt in my body. I could see paramedics running around me, some close by me and asking me to follow there fingers as they moved it from side to side in front of my face. The edges of my vision were blurring, my breathing slowed and wheezing. Eli's warm fingers brushed my hair from my face, and my eyes bore into his, taking in every single detail of his face. I never wanted to forget it. It looked like tears were almost beginning to spill from his eyes and I winced as the paramedics tended to my wounds, still shouting at eachother and trying to get me to focus on them.
But honestly, I couldn't focus on them. Deep down I knew I was dying. I was in too deep, I was too far gone. I didn't want to spend those last few moments trying to save what was past saving. I wanted to be in Eli's arms, wanted to kiss him on the cheek and tell him that it wasn't his fault. Tears began to trickle uncontrollably down my cheeks, my hand shaking as I reached up to touch Eli's face for the last time.
"L..oov..e yo....yoou."
I silently mouthed the words to Eli. There was so much more I wanted to say. He had been my best friend for as long as I could remember. I wasn't ready to die. The pain was sudden as it cut through my like an icy knife, my face pale as my breathing slowed to nothing. Soon the edges of my vision took over, blurring to blackness, and then there was just nothing at all. No longer did I feel the pain. No longer did I feel the blood pooled around me.
But worst, no longer did I feel Eli's arms around me. I was absolutely numb, in my world of blackness.
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Post by Gracie♥ on Aug 13, 2010 20:28:43 GMT -8
you heard that i was trouble ,
BUT YOU COULDN'T RESISTT A K E A B I T E L E T M E S H A K E U P Y O U R W O R L D- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - "Loo..ve..y..oou."
I gulped, as if trying to swallow that emotion that had been building up. A lump rose in my throat as I felt her fall limp. My best friend was dying in my arms. First Marina, and now Allie. I killed the two best girls on the planet. The thought was unbearable.
Looking down once more, making sure she was gone for good by now, even though I knew she was, I rose. The room was spinning, and for a moment I thought I might fall faint. I closed my eyes, frozen here until I could get my thoughts in order. I touched my chest softly, trying my best to regulate my breathing.
A wave of dizziness swept over me as I started to walk, but I ignored it. I stepped cautiously into the men's room. I slipped inside, slumping against the wall. As I hit the ground, I reached into my pocket. There was a drawing compass, of all things, that I'd saved for math class. I stared at it for a moment, running my fingers along the sharp edge that was made to fit a pencil. It was perfect. With trembling hands, I traced it along my wrist.
Because of me... Everyone I cared about was gone. Because of me. Drawing in a ragged breath, I put pressure on the blade, dragging it against my flesh slowly. I saw the blood pool on the ground beside me, which was a little disturbing, but I didn't care. There were more important things to deal with.
Marina was dead. Ssshank.
Allie was dead. Ssshank.
I wanted to die. Ssssssshank.
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Post by summerstorm on Aug 13, 2010 20:47:34 GMT -8
HOW CAN I DECIDE WHAT'S RIGHT WHEN YOUR CLOUDING UP MY MIND Numbness. Nothingness.
Honestly, I think the feeling was worse than pain itself. I'd give anything to feel my body. Even if it was the worst pain at all, I'd take it. At least then I would know I was alive. I didn't know how much time passed. Seconds, minutes, hours, maybe even days, I had absolutely no sense of time.
All of a sudden I got some feeling back in my body. It wasn't like it was before though; now it was stiff and uncomfortable, like unfamiliar territory. When I opened my eyes nothing was how I expected it to be. I expected nothing.
And if not nothing, all the commotion that was there before I died.
But neither of those things were present. Instead my body was slumped in the corner, no blood pooled around me, my shirt wasn't ripped, my back against the wall like I had just dozed off in between classes. For half a second I wondered if it was a bad dream, but I knew that it just wasn't possible to feel that sort of pain in a dream. The hallway was completely empty, and I carefully got to my feet, holding the wall for support. My legs shook as I came to the sudden realization of what I already new subconsciously.
I was undead.
Nothing could have prepared me for this. I stomach felt nauseous as I stumbled along the wall, my head dizzy as I heard ringing in my ears. The closest bathroom was the mens, but honestly I figured who gave a shit, apparently I just died.
As I struggled along the wall, I finally reached the door to the bathroom and pushed it open, cluching my stomach as I rounded the corner, feeling like I might vomit. What I saw almost brought me to the edge. Eli sat there, his own blood dripping to the ground, a sharp object held in his hand as he cut himself again and again. I started to walk towards him, tears trickling down my cheeks, but I only made it halfway before slumping against the wall to the ground, trying to reach Eli's arm to stop him from cutting himself.
TAGGED,, for who?
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Post by Gracie♥ on Aug 13, 2010 21:16:45 GMT -8
you heard that i was trouble ,
BUT YOU COULDN'T RESISTT A K E A B I T E L E T M E S H A K E U P Y O U R W O R L D- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
I was so out of it, I couldn't even feel the pain of the blade against my wrists. The emotional pain had numbed me, which was probably for the best. I was about to drag the compass against my arm for a fifth time, when the door opened. Instinctively, I hid the bloody blade in my pocket, not wanting anyone to feel sorry for me. Until I saw who it was.
Allie.
But... She was... Dead. Just ten minutes ago she had been in my arms, her body shutting down. She was just another living impaired now. She would have to endure all the discrimination, the fights, the horrible treatment. Allie didn't deserve any of us. And I could have stopped that bullet. I should be the one that caught that bullet, dammit. I should be the one standing there, with a hole in my chest.
At that, I dragged the blade across my arm once more before tossing it angrily across the bathroom. It fell to the ground with a subtle clatter. It made my head throb, and my arms were starting to burn. Sniffling helplessly, I turned my head to face Allie. It was horrifying, and for a moment I couldn't bring myself to look her in the eyes.
It was still her, but the life was drained from her expression. I don't know what came over me, but, remembering her last words to me, I couldn't think of anything better to say to Allie. Poor, dear Allie.
"I love you too, Allie. I really do."
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Post by summerstorm on Aug 13, 2010 21:30:28 GMT -8
I love you too, Allie. I really do.
I swallowed, my mouth dry and uncomfortable, ears still ringing from the clattering sound of the blade against the bathroom floor. With my foot I kicked it farther away, not wanting to see what had caused the horrifying cuts against Eli's wrists. My body was still slumped against the wall, weak as my chest seemed to still burn in pain. A few times I wondered if there would still be a large wound there, but I was afraid to look. Without a word, I moved to my feet, and shuffled towards Eli, tears streaming down my cheeks as I sat down against the wall next to him, trying my best to ignore the blood pooled on the ground.
"You mean everything to me."
I whispered, my voice barely there at all. With shaking hands, I pulled his hands into my lap, my head resting on his shoulder, try to hold back the tears that kept coming. I held my hands against the cuts on his wrists, trying to stop them from bleeding anymore than necessary.
As I leaned my head against his shoulder, I just sobbed. I didn't know what else to do. I had no where to go, there was nothing left for me. I cried for Eli, mostly. I knew what he thought, I knew about his girlfriend, and I couldn't let him blame himself for this. Thats the part that killed me the most. I didn't want him to beat himself up. This was out of his control. I tried to tell him what was on my mind, but I couldn't get it out through the soft sobs and tears.
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Post by Gracie♥ on Aug 13, 2010 21:51:38 GMT -8
you heard that i was trouble ,
BUT YOU COULDN'T RESISTT A K E A B I T E L E T M E S H A K E U P Y O U R W O R L D- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - "You mean everything to me."
Allie's words were hardly audible, but I knew perfectly well what she was saying. It hit me now that she could easily have taken what I said the wrong way, but there were more important things to do right now. I breathed a deep sigh, Allie's weak fingers slowly stopping the bleeding. Her hands were so cold, it felt good on my wrists.
After a moment, I shifted to face her, wiping the tears from her cheeks. Even though she was dead, she was still beautiful. Stunning. I forced a smile, catching her absent gaze. I could tell she was worrying about me, but she didn't need to be wasting her time. "I'll be fine... And, so will you."
I looked at her bloodstained shirt, and instantly started to unbutton my vest. I slipped off my shirt, handing it to Allie. "You, um, might want to put on a clean top," I muttered.
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Post by summerstorm on Aug 13, 2010 22:06:23 GMT -8
HOW CAN I DECIDE WHAT'S RIGHT WHEN YOUR CLOUDING UP MY MIND Eli's fingers were warm against my cheeks as he wiped away the tears that had finally ceased. As he shifted to face me, I stared to him, not wanting to take my eyes off of him. I'll be fine... And, so will you. I listened to his words carefully, playing them over in my mind, letting them reassure me slightly. I followed his gaze to my bloodstained shirt, just now noticing it. You, um, might want to put on a clean top. He muttered to me, and I nodded, taking the shirt that he held out for me.
Honestly, I wanted to avoid looking at the wound in my chest for as long as possible, but changing my shirt was a good idea. I swallowed nervously, slowly pull off my bloodstained shirt, avoiding looking down until I was ready.
The wound was still visible, although it had stopped bleeding. It was a gruesome sight that made my stomach lurch, but it looked to have already started to heal. I guess it was an undead thing, that you healed a rapid rate. As I stared at it, the tears started to burn my eyes once again, and all at once I couldn't look at it anymore. Quickly I pulled on Eli's shirt, the smell of him comforting, as if it warmed my cold body.
Sitting back down, I stared ahead silently. Tears were threatening, but I held them back as best I could, but the thoughts were even harder to hold back. What would happen now? What about my family, my future? I laid my head in my hands, shutting my eyes as I winced in physical and mental exhaustion.
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