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Post by summerstorm on Aug 16, 2010 17:12:45 GMT -8
 HOW CAN I DECIDE WHAT'S RIGHT WHEN YOUR CLOUDING UP MY MIND Allie, I know you want it to be true, but... It's really not. Don't waste your time. I'm out.
He kept his finger against my lips as he spoke, before pushing my hands with a violent flick away from him. I took a step back as he walked through the door, feeling sick to my stomach. I clutched my hands to my stomach, sinking against the wall to the floor, my head in my hands as I struggled to get a decent breath. Thinking about this, seeing Eli leave, made me physically sick. I bit my lip before standing back up to my feet, my body shaking in convulses that weren't entirely normal.
My fingers trailed against the wall, trying to get some sense of balance before pushing the bathroom door open, seeing Eli walking down an otherwise empty hallway. My eyes strayed down the hall, seeing all the classroom doors shut, and then double checking. I didn't think I could handle talking about my... death.. with anyone else.
"I can't do this alone."
My voice shook as I spoke, loud enough that I knew Eli would hear my words, even though he was partway down the hallway. I didn't move from my place in front of the bathroom. And I wouldn't move. If he didn't want to talk to me anymore, I had to accept that. I didn't want to push myself on him, but if I was being honest, being without Eli terrified me.
If I didn't have Eli, I had no one.
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Post by Gracie♥ on Aug 16, 2010 17:28:57 GMT -8
 you heard that i was trouble ,
BUT YOU COULDN'T RESISTT A K E A B I T E L E T M E S H A K E U P Y O U R W O R L D- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
"I can't do this alone."
I whipped around, turning to look at Allie, who was still standing in the doorway pitifully. The sight of her standing there, undead and all alone was like a shock to my system. At this point, I was just being selfish. But, I was... Me.. I didn't give up so easily. In truth, I was stubborn and hard-headed.
"You're a fighter. You can, and you will," I said, without bothering to walk back toward Allie. I was glad to be there for her, for support, but she couldn't rely on me every moment of every day. It was unrealistic.
"I'll be there for you, love, but... What are you supposed to do, move in with me?" My tone was sharp and sarcastic as I snapped back at her, doing my best to keep my cool. Sure, we had our moments, but I loved Allie.
In the long run.
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Post by summerstorm on Aug 16, 2010 17:39:44 GMT -8
HOW CAN I DECIDE WHAT'S RIGHT WHEN YOUR CLOUDING UP MY MIND You're a fighter. You can, and you will.
Eli's words cut through my like a knife. I wasn't generally classified as a 'needy' kind of person. That just wasn't me. I didn't bother looking up at him. I already knew what I would see; the backside of Eli, I hadn't really expected him to turn around. I took a breath, my eyes focusing hard on the floor, biting my lip as I hesitated to say anything. I'll be there for you, love, but... What are you supposed to do, move in with me? His tone was sharp as he snapped back at me, my gaze lifting from the floor for only a moment. My chest began to throb, although I wasn't completely sure why it decided now was a good time to start making it's presence known.
At that point, I wasn't really sure what to say. Eli was right, and normally he was. I stood there like a complete idiot.
Right about now was the time that I began to wonder where I would be tonight. I couldn't go home, but then I reminded myself all my belongings were there, and no matter how much I wanted to avoid my shitty step dad and insensitive mother, I couldn't avoid them forever.
"You're right."
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