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Post by summerstorm on Sept 23, 2010 18:27:55 GMT -8
  
I was grateful for the fact that Eli had stepped away from Heath, had backed down and faced that Heath really wasn't worth the fight. I was grateful that I was here in the presence of Eli, it was as if the effect he had on me was something I feared to be without.
But there was also things I was ungrateful for. Everything with Heath that I had been holding down, now had risen painfully and boldly to the surface. Before, I had no intention of telling anyone about my encounter with the other side of Heath. The scarier side... the side that was completely unlike anything I had ever feared. But now I had to face it all head-on. It wasn't fair that I was keeping Eli in the dark about all of this. For him, I would tell him everything that had happened, every event leading up to that moment. Necessary, yes. Easy, no.
"I'm sorry about bringing you into all of this. It wasn't right.. and it's not fair that I have been leaving you in the dark.."
I breathed a sigh, my hands shaking in my lap as I sat idly on Eli's couch. I swallowed dryly through my throat, my anxiety reaching a high at this point. I gritted my teeth together, biting my lip as I struggled with where to begin. All at once it was like a rush of emotion boiled inside of me, and I tried with great difficulty to keep the tears at bay.
"You deserve to know the truth, Eli."
I spoke slowly, as if each word took more effort to make out than it would at any normal time.
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Post by Gracie♥ on Sept 26, 2010 15:03:15 GMT -8
 every sinner has a future ,
EVERY SAINT HAS A PASTW O U L D Y O U L E T M E W H I T T L E M Y S E L F I N T O S O M E T H I N G- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
"I'm sorry about bringing you into all of this. It wasn't right.. and it's not fair that I have been leaving you in the dark.." Her words were slow and delicate. Whatever sounds that had been emitting from the streets below seemed to stop, drowned out by the sweet tones of her voice. "You deserve to know the truth, Eli."
Ava pronounced my name with soft, delicate clarity, like it would break if she wasn't careful. Then again, she seemed to feel that way about everything. After Ava was through speaking, I ran her words through my head a few times before I could even think of responding. Still deep in my thoughts, I reached for her hand, holding in gently in my own. What had Heath done that was this... Horrific?
"Ava... You don't have to tell me anything. I'll stop getting involved. Honest."
I glanced up at her, my green eyes empty and unblinking. Sure, I was curious, but there were things about me she may never know. It wasn't that big of a deal.
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Post by summerstorm on Sept 26, 2010 16:05:25 GMT -8
Ava... You don't have to tell me anything. I'll stop getting involved. Honest. I let him take my hand within his, biting my lips as I gave my head a quick shake. No, it was time that he knew. Not only that... but I felt like someone had to know. Like I had been keeping this locked away for much too long. And if anyone was to know, I wanted it to be Eli. There was no two ways about it. I trusted Eli, I loved him. That was it.
"No, Eli. It isn't fair to you, and... "
I paused for a moment, taking a breath. No matter how I felt the need to tell him, it would never be easy. Or tolerable. But I hoped that somehow this could help me move on. It was like everything with Heath was holding me back from.. from being me.
"It's time I got past this."
My voice was barely a whisper, and I wasn't really sure wether he would hear me or not. I swallowed hard, my hand shaking within his out of anxiety. My eyelashes blinked rapidly, feeling myself start to boil with an onset of emotion. One tear escaped from my deep eyes, running down my cheekbone as I hastily wiped it away.
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Post by Gracie♥ on Sept 29, 2010 16:45:55 GMT -8
every sinner has a future ,
EVERY SAINT HAS A PASTW O U L D Y O U L E T M E W H I T T L E M Y S E L F I N T O S O M E T H I N G- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
"No, Eli. It isn't fair to you, and... " I listened to Ava intently, her words chillingly calm. "It's time I got past this." Ava blinked away tears, wiping away a stray tear hastily.
But, what was there to get past, exactly?
One thing was for sure. It was Heath's fault. The idea got my blood boiling. What made him think he had the right to do this to Ava? She was young and innocent, and whatever he had done, she didn't deserve it. Never had, never would. But, whatever the hell Heath had done to her... I was going to get him back.
"... What are you trying to say, Ava?"
My words escaped slightly louder and more demanding than I had intended, but I figured it was purely due to the seriousness of the matter. Had Heath.. Hurt her? Physically? Or mentally, maybe? Questions had been buzzing for hours, but by now they had gotten a million times worse. Yeah. She kind of did this to me.
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Post by summerstorm on Sept 29, 2010 17:04:48 GMT -8
What are you trying to say, Ava?
Eli's voice came out louder and much more demanding than I had expected. Well.. actually it was exactly what I should have been expecting. Undoubtedly, this would make Eli more angry with Heath. And honestly.. I didn't blame him. But I couldn't let him get into another fight with Heath. It was too risky... I had no intention of seeing that other side of Heath again. Taking a breath, I let it out slowly, trying to think of the best way to start telling Eli. I figured I may as well go from the very beginning, not leave anything out.
"Heath and I had been dating for a few months. Yeah, back then I was blind to his idiocy. Things were going okay.. but that only lasted so long."
My voice trailed off as I swallowed blinking quickly to rid my eyes of welling tears. I clutched my hands against my stomach, arms folded idly in my lap as if I could hold myself together. I could feel my fingernails digging into my palms as I clenched my fists together.
"There is much more to Heath than meets the eye. When I was finally brought to my senses enough to realize I didn't want to be with Heath, I drove to his house to tell him face to face..."
This was when the story got almost intolerable, to the point when I was on the brink of losing it. Like I was hanging on the edge of a cliff, dangling by my fingertips, as my desperation sky rocketed. My breathing was more uneven as my heart beat quickened, tears trickling over the rims of my eye lid.
"Heath... he was.. I don't even have the right words. When I told him.. that's when he lost it- and I suppose when I tried to leave is when things got worse..."
My voice broke off, as I rested my head in my hands as my body shook in anxiety. Never had I reminisced back to those events until now.
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Post by Gracie♥ on Oct 2, 2010 18:49:01 GMT -8
every sinner has a future ,
EVERY SAINT HAS A PASTW O U L D Y O U L E T M E W H I T T L E M Y S E L F I N T O S O M E T H I N G- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
Ava started to speak, the color draining from her face. Her trembling words were deeply disturbing, yet I believed every word that was coming from her mouth. Heath was a horrible person, that was already clear, but what had she done? When she was finished, what she'd told me hadn't made anything any more clear, just made me even more scared for Ava. I scanned her face, icily recording everything about her as if I could lose her at any moment.
Her dark brown hair cascaded in softly looped curls down her back, and her eyes were deep and chillingly empty. Softly chisled features made up her painstakingly gorgeous. The fact that she was mine simply sent me reeling. How would someone like me get someone like her? It was something I would never, ever understand, but I wasn't complaining. Definitely not complaining.
"So... What did he do to you?" I urged. With shaking fingers, I rested my hand on her leg, squeezing her thigh reassuringly. She would be fine. Right?
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Post by summerstorm on Oct 2, 2010 19:04:07 GMT -8
So... what did he do to you?
Good question. And sure, the answer would be simple, yet it held so much pain in it. I could feel his hand on my leg, trying his best to reassure me as I tried hard not to burst out into tears. I swallowed back my emotion uneasily, biting my lip as I pulled my sleeves up to my elbows. A long, angry looking scar ran up from my elbow and up my arm. My fingers touched against it idly, as if I could brush it away like it was something so little. I opened my mouth to speak, but no words left my lips, as I closed my mouth just as quickly as I had opened it.
I raised my fingers slowly to the zipper on my coat, before undoing it and pulling it off, hands resting shakily against the seam on my shirt. I pulled it up halfway, revealing a pattern of dark, sickening looking bruises that made me wince to look at, marking up my side.
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Post by Gracie♥ on Oct 2, 2010 21:00:01 GMT -8
every sinner has a future ,
EVERY SAINT HAS A PASTW O U L D Y O U L E T M E W H I T T L E M Y S E L F I N T O S O M E T H I N G- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
I think a little peice of my soul died right then. One I would probably never, ever get back. The bruises on her side were deep shades of purple and green. Colors no one should turn - even from bruises - except maybe Heath. Yeah, that would do him so good. I brushed my fingers against her ribs, careful not to injure her further.
"Ava. I am so, so sorry."
My words were muted, and cut short when I leaned in to kiss her stomach, grazing the deep bruises gingerly. Wrapping my arms around her waist, I sat up to kiss her again, on the lips this time. I felt horrible for her, but the sorriness had transferred itself into passion in that sick, twisted mind of mine.
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Post by summerstorm on Oct 2, 2010 21:13:16 GMT -8
Ava. I am so, so sorry.
Eli's words were soft, but cut short, brushing his icy fingers against my ribs, before leaning in to kiss the bruises, lips grazing my side gently. Wrapping his arms around my waist, he reached up and met his lips with mine, the feeling so intense that I forgot about Heath for a moment. As I moved, I winced against the pain in my side, but it was clouded by passion. My hands rested against his neck, my lips moving against his before working down his pale skin. Grazing his neck, I took a deep breath, as if Eli was intoxicating enough to make me forget Heath entirely.
Telling Eli about what happened may be one of the hardest things I have had to do. Yet, it was also so fully necessary, that I was already feeling a great deal of the weight was off of my shoulders.
But as for Heath, well, he would never be out of my life. Not entirely. That's what I feared for the most. Every time I saw him, it was like seeing his face that night. Seeing him like he had no conscience, like whatever he planned on doing was something he could sleep with at night. That was the worst part of it all. But then again, I stand corrected. The worst part was bringing Eli into this. It wasn't fair of me. Yet at that moment I was so intensely grateful for his presence. I had been since I met him.
But I would never again underestimate Heath. What he could do... it was sickening.
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